There are a lot to tell about my family...
All the interesting stories told over and over again by my mother about our childhood. The days when we lived at the narrow dead end street called the "Mouse Tail" of the "Green Bean Area" in Macau. How my brothers threw water bomb from the 5th floor after we moved in a building. How eight of us all fit in my dad's first sedan. The day when Patrick went 'po po' under a tree and chased after by the bees. The bloody scary cut on Lawrence's as he stood on top of the glass table and broke the glass. How Ivan has been called "the Lazy Ghost" because he refused to take the bread to the old lady next door by giving an excuse that he doesn't have energy to do so. How mom punished the wrong person because James and Patrick look so much alike. How dad treated Thomas 滕條燜豬肉 when he put his 鼻屎 on the wall. The day we got our first pet and she "pee" and "po' on our carpet and we stepped on it. The night when I am on high fever and mom carried me and ran a long way for a taxi in the middle of the night, waited till dawn and no taxi can hire, my fever was gone and mom is so exhausted, we then walk home together without going to the hospital.
And the next generation… they are creating topics to be told over and over again in the future...
The kids new toy... they started to feed Jacob chocolate ice-cream. Jacob thinks that he can eat them all...
Tuesday, August 21, 2007
Sunday, August 19, 2007
罪雖可怕, 但...
耶和華是我的光
每一次我謙卑來到祢面前
承認過犯 求祢寬恕
祢是信實公義
一次再一次 赦免我又潔淨我靈
可是我像依舊坐在黑暗裡
不相信已被完全潔淨
但祢有憐憫心腸
叫日光臨到我
帶我走出這死蔭幽谷
副歌
我雖跌倒 卻要起來
我雖坐在黑暗裡
耶和華卻作我的光
我在那裡跌倒
就從那裡再站起來
我不在黑暗死蔭裡
因祂的光引我到平安的路上
縱使我像依舊坐在黑暗裡
我相信已被完全潔淨
因祢有憐憫心腸
叫日光臨到我
帶我走出這死蔭幽谷
神就是如此真實，罪人因信得生是千真萬確的事實。信徒跌倒時只需自卑、後悔回轉，在跌倒處再站起來，上帝必伸手扶助。在人生的任何時間都可成為另一個起點，重新活過。
HE Works In Ways We Can Not See
It is never my good work, it's God's.
An email from Rongxian. It is not my intention to get any praise or word of gratitude for what is done in China. One of my student emailed me. I am very pleased and touched. I am not a person good at spoken word, somehow God used my weaknesses for His glory. I don't even remember I said such thing, but God composed it to be sound of music in her ears. She said when I said that her tears filled her eyes and her teaching won't be the same again. When I read her email, tears filled my mine. The God of good work, works in ways we can not see.
When I saw them Thursday, I am speechless and emotionally shut down, I don't feel a thing for the entire week. After the restoration, my feet walk toward them, I am still speechless, however, somehow my two arms put around her, I feel something, it's LOVE. Love is not a spoken language, it is God's work, works in ways we can not see.
An email from Rongxian. It is not my intention to get any praise or word of gratitude for what is done in China. One of my student emailed me. I am very pleased and touched. I am not a person good at spoken word, somehow God used my weaknesses for His glory. I don't even remember I said such thing, but God composed it to be sound of music in her ears. She said when I said that her tears filled her eyes and her teaching won't be the same again. When I read her email, tears filled my mine. The God of good work, works in ways we can not see.
When I saw them Thursday, I am speechless and emotionally shut down, I don't feel a thing for the entire week. After the restoration, my feet walk toward them, I am still speechless, however, somehow my two arms put around her, I feel something, it's LOVE. Love is not a spoken language, it is God's work, works in ways we can not see.
Friday, August 17, 2007
寶貴十架
Somehow within the two weeks of RX STM, Denise and I were singing this song day and night. It just happen simultaneously that God put this song in our head the same time. This song is as comforting as it is from day 1. From time to time, I just need to re-confirm the covenant between God and I, how sin separated me from my dear Lord, how deadly sin is forbiding me from enjoying God's presence, how uncomprehendable Jesus's love to me to put himself on the cross, how indescrible is it for God to come to earth to save sinful human, how lovely it is I am in HIS own eye, how precious it is I am in HIS bosom.
主耶穌 我感謝你 你的身體 為我而捨
帶我出黑暗 進入光明國度 使我再次能看見
主耶穌 我感謝你 你的寶血 為我而流
寶貴十架上 醫治恩典湧流 使我完全得自由
寶貴十架的大能賜我生命
主耶穌我俯伏敬拜你
寶貴十架的救恩是你所立的約
你的愛永遠不會改變
主耶穌 我感謝你 你的身體 為我而捨
帶我出黑暗 進入光明國度 使我再次能看見
主耶穌 我感謝你 你的寶血 為我而流
寶貴十架上 醫治恩典湧流 使我完全得自由
寶貴十架的大能賜我生命
主耶穌我俯伏敬拜你
寶貴十架的救恩是你所立的約
你的愛永遠不會改變
Wednesday, August 15, 2007
若有人偶然被過犯所勝
當知道罪在我們中間，是一件很痛的事情。痛得不知道怎樣言語，只得把一切的感覺都關閉，以免一發不可收拾。沒有怪責、沒有痛哭、也沒有大鬧，只感到很無奈。這是服事的人都要反覆面對的心痛嗎？
我們的心都在淌血呢！主耶穌，讓孩子躲在你懷中吧！這個現實太殘酷了。求主憐憫。
我們的心都在淌血呢！主耶穌，讓孩子躲在你懷中吧！這個現實太殘酷了。求主憐憫。
Tuesday, August 14, 2007
給最開心的人 (給遺忘了的人)
突然...想起了這首歌...
給最開心的人
曲編詞:林一峰
窮途末路之時 我急需的是你聲音
每當天色陰沈 你就像太陽為我暖心
對於朋友 你的細心 已足夠花去半數時間
尚有精神娛樂大家 從沒離群
情路段段不幸 你用辦法沒有上心
慣於利用經驗 叫身邊的人勇敢
對於情感 你很有心
卻未曾聽過你埋怨
為了打救旁人幸福 沒時間傷心
感激你 最開心的人
陪伴著我 每個無眠夜深
用你笑聲 修補我不幸
過濾失落 重獲信心
只不過 誰為你認真
習慣了悲哀中救傷的你
沒法放開開心的責任
抱著心事無人問 壯烈犧牲
每當落淚之前 你可想找誰人說話
每當熱鬧之後 你最想誰為你留下
記得有天 你失了蹤
我頓時驚覺我未能夠
像你一半有耐性為旁人粗心
感激你 最開心的人
陪伴著我 每個無眠夜深
用你笑聲 修補我不幸
過濾失落 重獲信心
只不過 誰為你認真
習慣了悲哀中救傷的你
沒法放開開心的責任
抱著心事無人問 壯烈犧牲
多得你 最開心的人
陪伴著我每個難熬夜深
用你笑聲 粉飾了天地
告別失望 無懼氣溫
只不過 誰為你著緊
習慣了悲哀中救傷的你
沒法放開開心的責任
抱著心事無人問 壯烈犧牲
若你想哭 即管放心吧
我不會過問
你可盡情在我肩膊哭泣
做個凡人
傾聽微小的聲音
最近在看一本有關安靜與默想的書。內心的靈在提醒我是時候撥發一段時給愛我的主，由其剛過了一個如此豐富的一個月，而且回來後更要面對團契如此心碎的事情，真的不想因此而抹煞了這個月來的奮興和心情。一切天父已給我安排好了，今晨因時差的關係四點起來，原來當大地仍在黑夜中憩息，各人仍在睡夢中安歇的時間，天父叫我起來，因衪已為我預備了延席。真的，上帝的話語如甘霖，使我的靈魂甦醒，全人的觀感也給悸動，每一個觸覺被主所吸引。
「火後有微小的聲音。」- 列王紀上19:12
一天，有一名農夫在馬房打掃，工作結束回到家裡，赫然發現老婆送給他的懷錶不見了。那隻懷錶對他的意義非凡、十分珍貴，於是他立刻轉身跑回馬廄尋找。但找來找去，幾乎把馬廄都給拆了，還是沒找著。
他垂頭喪氣地走出來，看到外面正好有一群小孩在玩耍，於是他向那群孩子說：「誰能在馬廄裡幫我找到懷錶，我就給他五毛錢。」一聽這話，那群孩子便一窩蜂地跑去找。經過一段時間，孩子們一個個空手出來，向他搖搖頭。農夫更加失望、氣餒了。
就在這個時候，出現一個孩童，對他說：「我再進去找一次，試試看！」農夫雖然不抱什麼希望，但也不表反對。這個孩子進去不一會兒的工夫，就出來了，手上還拿著農夫的懷錶。農夫非常驚訝，問他：「你是怎樣找到的？」
孩子說：「我進去之後，什麼也不作，只是靜靜地坐在地上。慢慢地，我就聽到了小小的滴答滴答聲，於是我順著聲音去找，就找到了。」
人生很多重要的指引是在安靜中聽到聖靈微小的聲音而得到的。或許，上帝就是想我們安靜的立在那裡什麼也不作，聆聽衪微聲的指引。
天光了，上帝的恩光普照大地，天父藉溫暖的陽光擁抱著我們。今天要好好為主而活！
「火後有微小的聲音。」- 列王紀上19:12
一天，有一名農夫在馬房打掃，工作結束回到家裡，赫然發現老婆送給他的懷錶不見了。那隻懷錶對他的意義非凡、十分珍貴，於是他立刻轉身跑回馬廄尋找。但找來找去，幾乎把馬廄都給拆了，還是沒找著。
他垂頭喪氣地走出來，看到外面正好有一群小孩在玩耍，於是他向那群孩子說：「誰能在馬廄裡幫我找到懷錶，我就給他五毛錢。」一聽這話，那群孩子便一窩蜂地跑去找。經過一段時間，孩子們一個個空手出來，向他搖搖頭。農夫更加失望、氣餒了。
就在這個時候，出現一個孩童，對他說：「我再進去找一次，試試看！」農夫雖然不抱什麼希望，但也不表反對。這個孩子進去不一會兒的工夫，就出來了，手上還拿著農夫的懷錶。農夫非常驚訝，問他：「你是怎樣找到的？」
孩子說：「我進去之後，什麼也不作，只是靜靜地坐在地上。慢慢地，我就聽到了小小的滴答滴答聲，於是我順著聲音去找，就找到了。」
人生很多重要的指引是在安靜中聽到聖靈微小的聲音而得到的。或許，上帝就是想我們安靜的立在那裡什麼也不作，聆聽衪微聲的指引。
天光了，上帝的恩光普照大地，天父藉溫暖的陽光擁抱著我們。今天要好好為主而活！
Monday, August 13, 2007
Eidel Weiss - 雪絨花
於太平洋上空 - 8/11/07
飛機正向美國啟航。望出窗外是一朶朶的白雲。每一朶的形狀也相同，只是大小不一。一連三個星期亞洲之旅終告結束。這些雲朶令我想起這首歌：
Eidel Weiss Eidel Weiss
Every morning you greet me
Soft and white, clean and bright
You look happy to meet me
Blossom of snow may you bloom and grow
Bloom and grow forever
Eidel Weiss Eidel Weiss
Bless my homeland forever
在每天的英語培訓中也唱著這首歌，很多學員也非常喜歡。在Sound of Music中這首歌是維也納的國歌。記得在Sound of Music中的上尉是帶著傷感的心情唱這首歌，那時正在納粹黨的迫害下唱出對在家園常見的花朶的一種念掛。離別他的家鄉，希望在花開之時，藉種在家鄉的雪絨花把無限的祝福與眷佑在苦難中的國家。
香港，雖然不是我生長之地，亦非什麼國、什麼家，但總有一種生於斯、長於斯的情懷。這裡的人、事物、街道都值得懷念。這小島的人的經歷、生存之道、適應力、視野，都有別於同級城市的中國人。在這地的人有的是比內地人更多、更自由的機會、更有利地去發揮。同樣，這地的人亦因有太多的機會而昏了頭，只在把一個又一個的機會逐一嘗試而略忽了最基本的家庭、健康、信仰、和培育孩子的重任。
我不知道紫荊花是怎樣成了香港的市花，可曾在香港盛開過。但願在香港種下紫荊花的上帝，祝佑這地，使她成為天國的殖民地。把這小島的人獨有的優越條件成為一個得天獨厚的機會去認識上帝。重新把短暫的視野轉移到永恆。
飛機正向美國啟航。望出窗外是一朶朶的白雲。每一朶的形狀也相同，只是大小不一。一連三個星期亞洲之旅終告結束。這些雲朶令我想起這首歌：
Eidel Weiss Eidel Weiss
Every morning you greet me
Soft and white, clean and bright
You look happy to meet me
Blossom of snow may you bloom and grow
Bloom and grow forever
Eidel Weiss Eidel Weiss
Bless my homeland forever
在每天的英語培訓中也唱著這首歌，很多學員也非常喜歡。在Sound of Music中這首歌是維也納的國歌。記得在Sound of Music中的上尉是帶著傷感的心情唱這首歌，那時正在納粹黨的迫害下唱出對在家園常見的花朶的一種念掛。離別他的家鄉，希望在花開之時，藉種在家鄉的雪絨花把無限的祝福與眷佑在苦難中的國家。
香港，雖然不是我生長之地，亦非什麼國、什麼家，但總有一種生於斯、長於斯的情懷。這裡的人、事物、街道都值得懷念。這小島的人的經歷、生存之道、適應力、視野，都有別於同級城市的中國人。在這地的人有的是比內地人更多、更自由的機會、更有利地去發揮。同樣，這地的人亦因有太多的機會而昏了頭，只在把一個又一個的機會逐一嘗試而略忽了最基本的家庭、健康、信仰、和培育孩子的重任。
我不知道紫荊花是怎樣成了香港的市花，可曾在香港盛開過。但願在香港種下紫荊花的上帝，祝佑這地，使她成為天國的殖民地。把這小島的人獨有的優越條件成為一個得天獨厚的機會去認識上帝。重新把短暫的視野轉移到永恆。
Back to Office
Finally got some sleep last night, thanks God. Today is working day!! My desk is piled with stacks and stacks of paper, sorting, filing, organizing and managing... the CFO said they are very disorganzied. ... may be that's why they need a manager.
Christine and the kids are gone last night back to South Carolina. Dad will fly to Hong Kong today, and that concluded the 2 months of Family Reunion, Short Term Mission and Summer visitation. The last two months has been fascinating and exhausted, but full of fun with the kids, joy serving with God in China and grace to cope with unexpected dilemma. Jesus grant us peace, wisdom to cope and strength to move on. What's lies ahead will be even more challenging and require totally reliance on Jesus. Jesus have mercy on us.
Christine and the kids are gone last night back to South Carolina. Dad will fly to Hong Kong today, and that concluded the 2 months of Family Reunion, Short Term Mission and Summer visitation. The last two months has been fascinating and exhausted, but full of fun with the kids, joy serving with God in China and grace to cope with unexpected dilemma. Jesus grant us peace, wisdom to cope and strength to move on. What's lies ahead will be even more challenging and require totally reliance on Jesus. Jesus have mercy on us.
Sunday, August 12, 2007
給姨媽的悼念 - A Final Tribute
寫於8/2/07 於廣西, 容縣
Death becomes part of life, it is expected and predictable. Yet, who can be ready to receive a death news?
姨媽 is a traditional chinese woman born in a typical family in Macau. She is the 5th sister in the family, my mom's elder sister. My impression of 姨媽 is very much dated back to those days our family still live in Hong Kong. She is a real good chef. Her home is always our gathering place for family get-together. There is a missing link for the recent years as her Alzheimer's disease become severe. She lost her ability to communicate and take care of herself. One of the purpose of my stay in HK was to evangelize to her while she is in her sick bed. Time is running out, and she didn't make it til I am complete with the mission. It is a time to learn submissive to God's time table.
姨媽 lived. Although with no spectacular legacy, her sacrificial love to her family is very much appreciated and remembered. It is nothing to be mentioned for those who love for a reward, but those who love with no condition should be respected and remembered. 姨媽's entire life s 'giving', her love to her children although not rewarded in her final years by her two sons, paid back by her always loving daughter.
Death becomes part of life, it is expected and predictable. Yet, who can be ready to receive a death news?
姨媽 is a traditional chinese woman born in a typical family in Macau. She is the 5th sister in the family, my mom's elder sister. My impression of 姨媽 is very much dated back to those days our family still live in Hong Kong. She is a real good chef. Her home is always our gathering place for family get-together. There is a missing link for the recent years as her Alzheimer's disease become severe. She lost her ability to communicate and take care of herself. One of the purpose of my stay in HK was to evangelize to her while she is in her sick bed. Time is running out, and she didn't make it til I am complete with the mission. It is a time to learn submissive to God's time table.
姨媽 lived. Although with no spectacular legacy, her sacrificial love to her family is very much appreciated and remembered. It is nothing to be mentioned for those who love for a reward, but those who love with no condition should be respected and remembered. 姨媽's entire life s 'giving', her love to her children although not rewarded in her final years by her two sons, paid back by her always loving daughter.
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