Inner Strength

It is quite depressing to take in the things that are happening today. The fatigue comes from the anxiety of being helpless in situation. The future becomes more and more difficult, not in terms of financial crisis, but more to the morality and the internal cohesiveness of church, which we Christian called Unity.

Just this past weekend, I get to read the most familiar bible story of all, the return of the prodigal son. The story being told thousands of time and has been preached from different perspectives. Probably the most repeated telling of the scripture make the most impact. God has touched my heart profoundly. The Holy Spirit sits right at the wound on the brokenness of my heart. The Father’s love to the prodigal son, the love that enveloped the return of the sinner, the embrace that provided the rest, acceptance and peace calm the wounded spirit within me. While I am wrapping up my primary service, insecurity arises. It is a challenge, being taking to a territory of unknown takes courage and faith. I see myself like the prodigal coming home. Coming home with a brand new identity, being home not like a worker. Learning to live with the community I am so familiar with a different role. Yet, I am both excited and anxious. God has led me to this uncertainty for a growth of faith and courage to change. The intimacy with the Father is all it takes to overcome such anxiety. The solid relationship with the Father is what count for personal accomplishment. The humble kneeling before the Father is where the source of strength. The abandoning of me in the Lord is where security could be found.

In trembling steps, ushering into a new era of spiritual walk, building spiritual life but not ministry skills. And… Let home be HOME.

Billy Graham's Prayer For Our Nation

"Heavenly Father, we come before you today to ask your forgiveness and to seek your direction and guidance. We know Your Word says, 'Woe to those who call evil good,' but that is exactly what we have done. We have lost our spiritual equilibrium and reversed our values. We have exploited the poor and called it the lottery. We have rewarded laziness and called it welfare. We have killed our unborn and called it choice. We have shot abortionists and called it justifiable. We have neglected to discipline our children and called it building self esteem. We have abused power and called it politics. We have coveted our neighbor's possessions and called it ambition. We have polluted the air with profanity and pornography and called it freedom of expression. We have ridiculed the time-honored values of our forefathers and called it enlightenment. Search us , Oh God, and know our hearts today; cleanse us from every sin and Set us free. Amen!"

A 90 year old old servant of God, remains faithful to preach the solid gospel of God.

Losing a Battle; Winning the War

Obama won the presidency.
Prop 8 has passed by a margin of 5%.
Prop 4 didn’t get passed by a margin of 5%.

Tuesday night was a critical moment. We sat in the front of the TV, listening to Obama victory speech. Together with some broadcast reporters, a lot of people cheer for the new president with his First family-to-be. I doubted what kind of ‘change’ it going to be. Prayer goes to the new president for a ‘change’ of better moral and purer faith.

Wednesday morning. Those who care are alert. 99% got count, 52% for Prop 8 and none of the media is willing to call it an end. None were giving up calling it a failure because there is still 1% of the residual absentee ballots to be counted. Opponents of Prop 8 spent $74 million, it is the most costly social-issues campaign in history. We won. Not by might, nor power, but by the spirit of God. Lawsuits have been filed by Prop 8’s opponents. More battles are to be fought by us Christian soldiers. In 2004, Proposition 22 is won by a bigger margin of 23%. In 2008, the margin dropped to a 5%. The number speaks. How we Christian today should prepare to fight another battle in the near future?

The Lord of hosts will lead us into victory.

結束就是開始

了結這些年來建立經營的一切，談可容易？既然已經想了這麼久，又可必待到意興闌珊的地步才放手呢？疲倦、不捨是必然，亦有自私的理由留下，但也不能長久的待在原地，努力踏步卻寸步難行，費盡力氣只是在消耗時間和放在前頭的機會。轉轉新的環境，學習做一個跟從者或能成為一個更勝任的領袖。要洞悉就必須停止往死胡同裡鑽，因此，拿出勇氣把它鐡定了。往外吸一口新鮮空氣，走出安全區，到不熟悉的領域。讓別人和自己也得有新嘗試，靈裡亦必有新突破。

今天，我喜愛的作家寫了以下的一段話…
「一個人的思慮愈多，愁煩也愈多。我現在不是不快樂，但也不是快樂。
當你了解人生，你幾乎沒有不快樂的理由，但你也沒有特別興奮的理由。
人不可能每天都快樂，唯一可以做的，是盡量享受當下這一刻的快樂。尤其當你知道，紜紜眾生裡，總有一些人關懷你，即使滿懷愁思，你還是會抹乾眼淚，努力笑一個。」

真的，人生就是這麼怪妙，只要有神在其中，有關懷的家人在身邊，就有勇氣迎向一切計劃以外的改變，心裡安然。這豈只是快樂，這是喜樂。

白宮「變」色

一場激烈的竸選活動，白宮變色了。白宮的白與黑並不重要，是非真理的黑與白才是最要緊。再一次證明，時勢是可做英雄。高談闊論的「變」，無人會知是怎樣。我所關心的是人性道德的變，只怕經濟好起來，人民道德卻下降，最終把黑的變白。

神所用的人並非什麼能幹的偉人。衪所要的人是一個心裡清正，敬畏、順服衪的謙卑人。

「他不喜悅馬的力大，不喜愛人的腿快。耶和華喜愛敬畏他，和盼望他慈愛的人。」詩篇147:10-11

「耶和華卻對撒母耳說，不要看他的外貌和他身材高大，我不揀選他，因為耶和華不像人看人，人是看外貌，耶和華是看內心。」撒母耳上16:7

「有人靠車，有人靠馬，但我們要提到耶和華我們神的名。」詩篇20:7

「耶和華在他的聖殿裡，耶和華的寶座在天上，他的慧眼察看世人。」詩篇11:4

選擇, 未來

未甦醒的城市

今早天未亮就起床，摸黑走進洗手間，到出門口時天已略光，還下著微微雨。陽光在東方漸露，透過雲層折射，東邊的天散著一片白茫茫的橙色，陽光落在充滿霧氣水份的西邊晴空，照出一道若隱若現的彩虹。這一天的開始，滿有天父創造的氣息。

早晨的街道，寧靜而人車稀疏，駕車人士亦因高速公路上車少而份外禮貌。駛進公司停車場，只是七點多，似乎沒有多少人上班。走出車外，一澟寒風吹過，不但感覺到寒意，也聽到呼呼風聲，拉緊衣襟，冬天正迎向這個還未甦醒的城市。

從三十二樓眺望窗外的風景，雨停了，雲霧亦漸散開，幾乎能看到太陽蒸發空氣間的水份，原本白茫茫的薄霧逐漸清晰。太陽從雲的縫間溫柔的照著這個城市。陽光照著地上一大片土壤彷彿鑲了金箔似的。天父在看顧著這個國家，這片土地，不論週二的選舉如何，衪仍必看顧。

住家菜

似乎這三個字不太文雅，皆因人都會心邪想錯隔離。

最近在家的時間更多了，因為想多陪媽媽和多做家務。現在家裡的擺設和整潔比以前更有條理了，因此想更多留在家中安逸的享受成果。家居清潔舒適，希望連家人心情與健康也有幫助。

媽媽晚上追看電視劇集，陪她好一會兒，我就會自行回房看我喜愛的電影或電視節目。最近愛看蘇Good Show，是烹飪節目，弄家常小菜。其實外出吃飯是有他的吸引，可以試試在家煮不到的美食，但最終吃過不少外間的珍饈百味，還是覺得在家蒸的魚最鮮，自己剁的豬肉餅最好味，家裡那個積了千年污漬的電飯煲煮出來的白飯最香。味道是重要但比不上家人同枱食飯享天淪的滋味。


媽媽行動不便，現在逢一、三、四改為到會住家菜，味道還可以，價錢合宜，最重要的是爸媽也喜歡。今晚，很想去市場買一舊肥豬肉剁，整味鹹蛋蒸豬肉餅。希望這滿有家的味道的豬肉餅，能令近日愁眉深鎖的爸爸展展笑容。

泡沫爆破

雪球滾大了，自然有殺傷力。

後果還不是由美國納稅人民來承擔？這煲湯泡得真和味！說這個絕不是出於僥倖，因每一個人也遭池魚之殃。數字還是每天的運轉，上上落落，有人說要趁低吸納，有人說要看定一點，我說不如好好想想如何改變生活，節省開支，減少出外吃飯，在還未要勒緊褲帶的時候作好準備。做人還是務實一點好，簡樸的生活唯智慧。不要貪小便宜，也不渴望不勞而獲，更不奢望可以一步登天，這一切份屬泡沫泡影，跟賭博沒有兩樣。不怕你輸，最怕你贏，人貪婪的心是因贏起，它只會越贏越雄，最終連本帶利加借貸的都賠上。目前的金融海嘯還不就是這個槓桿泡沫爆破的後遺症嗎？貪取暴利的銀行、從中想分一杯羹的保險公司、那些動了房地產投機主意次貸又次貸的誰，他們合力吹出來又大又圓的泡沫波波，嘩！

今天可以做的是穩紮務實地做好份內事，作個有承擔有責任的人，為不好走的未來打好根基。天文數字的保險差額，作為納稅人，這煲泡湯我亦有分一杯羹呢！總算在廿一世紀歷史性時代留痕了！也能給後人說說我的壯舉！

展開清晨的翅膀

神以此詩歌溢滿我心，眼眶盈著感恩的淚。

展開清晨的翅膀 - (詩篇139篇)

主耶和華，你已經鑒察了我。
我坐下，我起來，你都已曉得。
我行路，我躺臥，你都細察，
你也深知我一切所行。

我舌頭上的話，你沒有一句不知道。
你在我前後環繞著我，按手在我身上。
這樣的奇妙，是我不能測透，
你的至高你的尊貴，是我永遠不能所及。
我可以往哪裡去躲避你的靈？
我可以往哪裡去逃，可躲避你的面？
我若展開清晨的翅膀飛到地極，
就在那裡，你的雙手也必引導我。