腓立比今年營會主題為gOd’scar (God/Gospel + Oscar)，以電影主題作藍本引身福音。可讓新朋友以他們熟識的渠道入手，思想人生，引入福音，同時亦幫助弟兄姊妹怎樣看電影之餘也能從中發掘信仰與人生。
除了之前看過「生日快樂」之後隨意的寫了一點什麼，我是很少寫電影的。適逢這營會的主題也不妨寫一寫吧！
經過差不多三個星期的適應、忙碌及停不了的會議，昨晚終於可以停下來。在打下一場仗之前養精蓄銳，安歇一下，決定要罷煮晚餐一晚，輕輕鬆鬆看齣戲。叫了Pizza，坐下來休息休息。是楊千嬅和陳奕迅的電影「每當變幻時」。
女主角，啊妙，年近三十、單身、因好賭的父親欠下一身債。被迫淪落街市賣魚為生，晚上把賣剩的魚作粥搵外快。故事背景「富貴墟」，其實是一個小型街市。每一個人也在幹自己的活，目的就是要活下去。啊妙卻不然，她二十七歲，目的是要在三十歲前還清欠債，離開街市，找一個值得嫁的人。那幾年她有目標地奮力工作，也不怕吃苦，原本與她作對的魚佬對她由憐生愛。魚佬從中幫了她不少忙，她不是沒有感動，而是還未到三十歲她相信她仍有本錢和機會。她是不會選擇街市佬的。豬肉佬、餅佬和魚佬，啊妙都沒有選擇。她心目中的「他」是一個猶似她獨愛的銀包一樣，是一個Prada和 Gucci的混合體。時間過去了，爸爸亦死去，錢也還清了，街市也拆了，富貴墟的舊街坊各散東西。啊妙過了三十歲，找到了自己的事業卻失去了愛她的魚佬。人與事往往都是失去了才覺珍貴。再見到魚佬時，選擇權不知那時已從她手中溜走了。魚佬已有了自己的家庭。
啊妙三十歲前活得有計劃、有目標、有理想，三十歲後的她卻很迷失。一切的理想與執著都在時代的巨輪下給輾碎了。後來她開了一間名為「Miss」的化妝店。Miss解作：迷失、遺漏、小姐與掛念。這是她三十歲後的人生。
三十歲後的女人沒什麼可悲，不一定要用「Miss」來形容。未到三十歲時的確是有點可怕，但過了之後卻覺得三十歲的自己更可愛，活得更有自信，更知道自己的定位，亦不會輕易為要擁有愛情或友情去迎合與改變自己。這些體會是必須經過年日才可學曉的呢。
人生要活得精彩不是如何去迎合變幻的人生，而是在變幻的人生中找住永恆，不會因為人生的不定而放棄目標與前行的動力。不論在三十歲前或三十歲後，在每一個段落也能抓緊生命的鑰匙。起點不一定是在三十歲前，在永恆國度中，任何時候也可以是起點。因為永恆的事情不乎那個是起點，只在乎掌管永恆的上帝。在瞬間即逝的世界中看到永恆就是能在「每當變幻時」站得住腳的要缺。
Friday, August 31, 2007
Thursday, August 30, 2007
閃電、閃電...隆...隆...!
一陣雷聲中驚醒，小菲抓門要人陪，可憐的菲菲給行雷嚇怕了，整個身體也在擅斗，心跳不停。
一連的閃電、雷轟、暴雨、及救護車聲，這個晚上非常熱鬧，希望沒有什麼不好的事發生。小菲敏銳的耳朵早已知道這晚有異，一晚心緒不靈。現在大家陪牠，無覺好瞓。
這刻很想念爸媽，每次行雷都有他們安慰菲菲又安慰我這個膽小的女兒。這回只好充當媽媽安慰小狗。心裡禱告主耶穌，讓主耶穌安慰我。記得那個小孩在閃電、雷轟時仰望天空微笑說，其實是上帝給我們拍照。嘩！天父的相機真的非常犀利，好大聲呢！
一切又平靜下來，只有零星的救護車聲。菲菲又回到自己的地方安睡。
求主保守週末腓立比有好天氣，舉行gOd’scar Camp.
一連的閃電、雷轟、暴雨、及救護車聲，這個晚上非常熱鬧，希望沒有什麼不好的事發生。小菲敏銳的耳朵早已知道這晚有異，一晚心緒不靈。現在大家陪牠，無覺好瞓。
這刻很想念爸媽，每次行雷都有他們安慰菲菲又安慰我這個膽小的女兒。這回只好充當媽媽安慰小狗。心裡禱告主耶穌，讓主耶穌安慰我。記得那個小孩在閃電、雷轟時仰望天空微笑說，其實是上帝給我們拍照。嘩！天父的相機真的非常犀利，好大聲呢！
一切又平靜下來，只有零星的救護車聲。菲菲又回到自己的地方安睡。
求主保守週末腓立比有好天氣，舉行gOd’scar Camp.
Tuesday, August 28, 2007
人的怒氣 vs. 神的怒氣
「因為人的怒氣、並不成就神的義。」 雅1:20
「我的怒氣漲溢、頃刻之間向你掩面、卻要以永遠的慈愛憐恤你．這是耶和華你的救贖主說的。」賽54:8
一想到神永遠的慈愛，怒氣全消。
「我的怒氣漲溢、頃刻之間向你掩面、卻要以永遠的慈愛憐恤你．這是耶和華你的救贖主說的。」賽54:8
一想到神永遠的慈愛，怒氣全消。
Sunday, August 26, 2007
麥子與稗子一同成長
「及至人睡覺的時候、有仇敵來、將稗子撒在麥子裡、就走了。到長苗吐穗的時候、稗子也顯出來。田主的僕人來告訴他說、主阿、你不是撒好種在田裡麼、從那裡來的稗子呢。人說、不必、恐怕薅稗子、連麥子也拔出來。容這兩樣一齊長、等著收割．當收割的時候、我要對收割的人說、先將稗子薅出來、捆成捆、留著燒；惟有麥子、要收在倉裡。」
麥子與稗子正在同時生長，而耶穌告訴門徒，不要在意稗子 ─ 那是衪的事，只要專心去栽培麥子。
麥子與稗子正在同時生長，而耶穌告訴門徒，不要在意稗子 ─ 那是衪的事，只要專心去栽培麥子。
Thursday, August 23, 2007
Tuesday, August 21, 2007
Topics to be told in the Future...
There are a lot to tell about my family...
All the interesting stories told over and over again by my mother about our childhood. The days when we lived at the narrow dead end street called the "Mouse Tail" of the "Green Bean Area" in Macau. How my brothers threw water bomb from the 5th floor after we moved in a building. How eight of us all fit in my dad's first sedan. The day when Patrick went 'po po' under a tree and chased after by the bees. The bloody scary cut on Lawrence's as he stood on top of the glass table and broke the glass. How Ivan has been called "the Lazy Ghost" because he refused to take the bread to the old lady next door by giving an excuse that he doesn't have energy to do so. How mom punished the wrong person because James and Patrick look so much alike. How dad treated Thomas 滕條燜豬肉 when he put his 鼻屎 on the wall. The day we got our first pet and she "pee" and "po' on our carpet and we stepped on it. The night when I am on high fever and mom carried me and ran a long way for a taxi in the middle of the night, waited till dawn and no taxi can hire, my fever was gone and mom is so exhausted, we then walk home together without going to the hospital.
And the next generation… they are creating topics to be told over and over again in the future...
The kids new toy... they started to feed Jacob chocolate ice-cream. Jacob thinks that he can eat them all...
All the interesting stories told over and over again by my mother about our childhood. The days when we lived at the narrow dead end street called the "Mouse Tail" of the "Green Bean Area" in Macau. How my brothers threw water bomb from the 5th floor after we moved in a building. How eight of us all fit in my dad's first sedan. The day when Patrick went 'po po' under a tree and chased after by the bees. The bloody scary cut on Lawrence's as he stood on top of the glass table and broke the glass. How Ivan has been called "the Lazy Ghost" because he refused to take the bread to the old lady next door by giving an excuse that he doesn't have energy to do so. How mom punished the wrong person because James and Patrick look so much alike. How dad treated Thomas 滕條燜豬肉 when he put his 鼻屎 on the wall. The day we got our first pet and she "pee" and "po' on our carpet and we stepped on it. The night when I am on high fever and mom carried me and ran a long way for a taxi in the middle of the night, waited till dawn and no taxi can hire, my fever was gone and mom is so exhausted, we then walk home together without going to the hospital.
And the next generation… they are creating topics to be told over and over again in the future...
The kids new toy... they started to feed Jacob chocolate ice-cream. Jacob thinks that he can eat them all...
Sunday, August 19, 2007
罪雖可怕, 但...
耶和華是我的光
每一次我謙卑來到祢面前
承認過犯 求祢寬恕
祢是信實公義
一次再一次 赦免我又潔淨我靈
可是我像依舊坐在黑暗裡
不相信已被完全潔淨
但祢有憐憫心腸
叫日光臨到我
帶我走出這死蔭幽谷
副歌
我雖跌倒 卻要起來
我雖坐在黑暗裡
耶和華卻作我的光
我在那裡跌倒
就從那裡再站起來
我不在黑暗死蔭裡
因祂的光引我到平安的路上
縱使我像依舊坐在黑暗裡
我相信已被完全潔淨
因祢有憐憫心腸
叫日光臨到我
帶我走出這死蔭幽谷
神就是如此真實，罪人因信得生是千真萬確的事實。信徒跌倒時只需自卑、後悔回轉，在跌倒處再站起來，上帝必伸手扶助。在人生的任何時間都可成為另一個起點，重新活過。
HE Works In Ways We Can Not See
It is never my good work, it's God's.
An email from Rongxian. It is not my intention to get any praise or word of gratitude for what is done in China. One of my student emailed me. I am very pleased and touched. I am not a person good at spoken word, somehow God used my weaknesses for His glory. I don't even remember I said such thing, but God composed it to be sound of music in her ears. She said when I said that her tears filled her eyes and her teaching won't be the same again. When I read her email, tears filled my mine. The God of good work, works in ways we can not see.
When I saw them Thursday, I am speechless and emotionally shut down, I don't feel a thing for the entire week. After the restoration, my feet walk toward them, I am still speechless, however, somehow my two arms put around her, I feel something, it's LOVE. Love is not a spoken language, it is God's work, works in ways we can not see.
An email from Rongxian. It is not my intention to get any praise or word of gratitude for what is done in China. One of my student emailed me. I am very pleased and touched. I am not a person good at spoken word, somehow God used my weaknesses for His glory. I don't even remember I said such thing, but God composed it to be sound of music in her ears. She said when I said that her tears filled her eyes and her teaching won't be the same again. When I read her email, tears filled my mine. The God of good work, works in ways we can not see.
When I saw them Thursday, I am speechless and emotionally shut down, I don't feel a thing for the entire week. After the restoration, my feet walk toward them, I am still speechless, however, somehow my two arms put around her, I feel something, it's LOVE. Love is not a spoken language, it is God's work, works in ways we can not see.
Friday, August 17, 2007
寶貴十架
Somehow within the two weeks of RX STM, Denise and I were singing this song day and night. It just happen simultaneously that God put this song in our head the same time. This song is as comforting as it is from day 1. From time to time, I just need to re-confirm the covenant between God and I, how sin separated me from my dear Lord, how deadly sin is forbiding me from enjoying God's presence, how uncomprehendable Jesus's love to me to put himself on the cross, how indescrible is it for God to come to earth to save sinful human, how lovely it is I am in HIS own eye, how precious it is I am in HIS bosom.
主耶穌 我感謝你 你的身體 為我而捨
帶我出黑暗 進入光明國度 使我再次能看見
主耶穌 我感謝你 你的寶血 為我而流
寶貴十架上 醫治恩典湧流 使我完全得自由
寶貴十架的大能賜我生命
主耶穌我俯伏敬拜你
寶貴十架的救恩是你所立的約
你的愛永遠不會改變
主耶穌 我感謝你 你的身體 為我而捨
帶我出黑暗 進入光明國度 使我再次能看見
主耶穌 我感謝你 你的寶血 為我而流
寶貴十架上 醫治恩典湧流 使我完全得自由
寶貴十架的大能賜我生命
主耶穌我俯伏敬拜你
寶貴十架的救恩是你所立的約
你的愛永遠不會改變
Wednesday, August 15, 2007
若有人偶然被過犯所勝
當知道罪在我們中間，是一件很痛的事情。痛得不知道怎樣言語，只得把一切的感覺都關閉，以免一發不可收拾。沒有怪責、沒有痛哭、也沒有大鬧，只感到很無奈。這是服事的人都要反覆面對的心痛嗎？
我們的心都在淌血呢！主耶穌，讓孩子躲在你懷中吧！這個現實太殘酷了。求主憐憫。
我們的心都在淌血呢！主耶穌，讓孩子躲在你懷中吧！這個現實太殘酷了。求主憐憫。
Tuesday, August 14, 2007
給最開心的人 (給遺忘了的人)
突然...想起了這首歌...
給最開心的人
曲編詞:林一峰
窮途末路之時 我急需的是你聲音
每當天色陰沈 你就像太陽為我暖心
對於朋友 你的細心 已足夠花去半數時間
尚有精神娛樂大家 從沒離群
情路段段不幸 你用辦法沒有上心
慣於利用經驗 叫身邊的人勇敢
對於情感 你很有心
卻未曾聽過你埋怨
為了打救旁人幸福 沒時間傷心
感激你 最開心的人
陪伴著我 每個無眠夜深
用你笑聲 修補我不幸
過濾失落 重獲信心
只不過 誰為你認真
習慣了悲哀中救傷的你
沒法放開開心的責任
抱著心事無人問 壯烈犧牲
每當落淚之前 你可想找誰人說話
每當熱鬧之後 你最想誰為你留下
記得有天 你失了蹤
我頓時驚覺我未能夠
像你一半有耐性為旁人粗心
感激你 最開心的人
陪伴著我 每個無眠夜深
用你笑聲 修補我不幸
過濾失落 重獲信心
只不過 誰為你認真
習慣了悲哀中救傷的你
沒法放開開心的責任
抱著心事無人問 壯烈犧牲
多得你 最開心的人
陪伴著我每個難熬夜深
用你笑聲 粉飾了天地
告別失望 無懼氣溫
只不過 誰為你著緊
習慣了悲哀中救傷的你
沒法放開開心的責任
抱著心事無人問 壯烈犧牲
若你想哭 即管放心吧
我不會過問
你可盡情在我肩膊哭泣
做個凡人
傾聽微小的聲音
最近在看一本有關安靜與默想的書。內心的靈在提醒我是時候撥發一段時給愛我的主，由其剛過了一個如此豐富的一個月，而且回來後更要面對團契如此心碎的事情，真的不想因此而抹煞了這個月來的奮興和心情。一切天父已給我安排好了，今晨因時差的關係四點起來，原來當大地仍在黑夜中憩息，各人仍在睡夢中安歇的時間，天父叫我起來，因衪已為我預備了延席。真的，上帝的話語如甘霖，使我的靈魂甦醒，全人的觀感也給悸動，每一個觸覺被主所吸引。
「火後有微小的聲音。」- 列王紀上19:12
一天，有一名農夫在馬房打掃，工作結束回到家裡，赫然發現老婆送給他的懷錶不見了。那隻懷錶對他的意義非凡、十分珍貴，於是他立刻轉身跑回馬廄尋找。但找來找去，幾乎把馬廄都給拆了，還是沒找著。
他垂頭喪氣地走出來，看到外面正好有一群小孩在玩耍，於是他向那群孩子說：「誰能在馬廄裡幫我找到懷錶，我就給他五毛錢。」一聽這話，那群孩子便一窩蜂地跑去找。經過一段時間，孩子們一個個空手出來，向他搖搖頭。農夫更加失望、氣餒了。
就在這個時候，出現一個孩童，對他說：「我再進去找一次，試試看！」農夫雖然不抱什麼希望，但也不表反對。這個孩子進去不一會兒的工夫，就出來了，手上還拿著農夫的懷錶。農夫非常驚訝，問他：「你是怎樣找到的？」
孩子說：「我進去之後，什麼也不作，只是靜靜地坐在地上。慢慢地，我就聽到了小小的滴答滴答聲，於是我順著聲音去找，就找到了。」
人生很多重要的指引是在安靜中聽到聖靈微小的聲音而得到的。或許，上帝就是想我們安靜的立在那裡什麼也不作，聆聽衪微聲的指引。
天光了，上帝的恩光普照大地，天父藉溫暖的陽光擁抱著我們。今天要好好為主而活！
「火後有微小的聲音。」- 列王紀上19:12
一天，有一名農夫在馬房打掃，工作結束回到家裡，赫然發現老婆送給他的懷錶不見了。那隻懷錶對他的意義非凡、十分珍貴，於是他立刻轉身跑回馬廄尋找。但找來找去，幾乎把馬廄都給拆了，還是沒找著。
他垂頭喪氣地走出來，看到外面正好有一群小孩在玩耍，於是他向那群孩子說：「誰能在馬廄裡幫我找到懷錶，我就給他五毛錢。」一聽這話，那群孩子便一窩蜂地跑去找。經過一段時間，孩子們一個個空手出來，向他搖搖頭。農夫更加失望、氣餒了。
就在這個時候，出現一個孩童，對他說：「我再進去找一次，試試看！」農夫雖然不抱什麼希望，但也不表反對。這個孩子進去不一會兒的工夫，就出來了，手上還拿著農夫的懷錶。農夫非常驚訝，問他：「你是怎樣找到的？」
孩子說：「我進去之後，什麼也不作，只是靜靜地坐在地上。慢慢地，我就聽到了小小的滴答滴答聲，於是我順著聲音去找，就找到了。」
人生很多重要的指引是在安靜中聽到聖靈微小的聲音而得到的。或許，上帝就是想我們安靜的立在那裡什麼也不作，聆聽衪微聲的指引。
天光了，上帝的恩光普照大地，天父藉溫暖的陽光擁抱著我們。今天要好好為主而活！
Monday, August 13, 2007
Eidel Weiss - 雪絨花
於太平洋上空 - 8/11/07
飛機正向美國啟航。望出窗外是一朶朶的白雲。每一朶的形狀也相同，只是大小不一。一連三個星期亞洲之旅終告結束。這些雲朶令我想起這首歌：
Eidel Weiss Eidel Weiss
Every morning you greet me
Soft and white, clean and bright
You look happy to meet me
Blossom of snow may you bloom and grow
Bloom and grow forever
Eidel Weiss Eidel Weiss
Bless my homeland forever
在每天的英語培訓中也唱著這首歌，很多學員也非常喜歡。在Sound of Music中這首歌是維也納的國歌。記得在Sound of Music中的上尉是帶著傷感的心情唱這首歌，那時正在納粹黨的迫害下唱出對在家園常見的花朶的一種念掛。離別他的家鄉，希望在花開之時，藉種在家鄉的雪絨花把無限的祝福與眷佑在苦難中的國家。
香港，雖然不是我生長之地，亦非什麼國、什麼家，但總有一種生於斯、長於斯的情懷。這裡的人、事物、街道都值得懷念。這小島的人的經歷、生存之道、適應力、視野，都有別於同級城市的中國人。在這地的人有的是比內地人更多、更自由的機會、更有利地去發揮。同樣，這地的人亦因有太多的機會而昏了頭，只在把一個又一個的機會逐一嘗試而略忽了最基本的家庭、健康、信仰、和培育孩子的重任。
我不知道紫荊花是怎樣成了香港的市花，可曾在香港盛開過。但願在香港種下紫荊花的上帝，祝佑這地，使她成為天國的殖民地。把這小島的人獨有的優越條件成為一個得天獨厚的機會去認識上帝。重新把短暫的視野轉移到永恆。
飛機正向美國啟航。望出窗外是一朶朶的白雲。每一朶的形狀也相同，只是大小不一。一連三個星期亞洲之旅終告結束。這些雲朶令我想起這首歌：
Eidel Weiss Eidel Weiss
Every morning you greet me
Soft and white, clean and bright
You look happy to meet me
Blossom of snow may you bloom and grow
Bloom and grow forever
Eidel Weiss Eidel Weiss
Bless my homeland forever
在每天的英語培訓中也唱著這首歌，很多學員也非常喜歡。在Sound of Music中這首歌是維也納的國歌。記得在Sound of Music中的上尉是帶著傷感的心情唱這首歌，那時正在納粹黨的迫害下唱出對在家園常見的花朶的一種念掛。離別他的家鄉，希望在花開之時，藉種在家鄉的雪絨花把無限的祝福與眷佑在苦難中的國家。
香港，雖然不是我生長之地，亦非什麼國、什麼家，但總有一種生於斯、長於斯的情懷。這裡的人、事物、街道都值得懷念。這小島的人的經歷、生存之道、適應力、視野，都有別於同級城市的中國人。在這地的人有的是比內地人更多、更自由的機會、更有利地去發揮。同樣，這地的人亦因有太多的機會而昏了頭，只在把一個又一個的機會逐一嘗試而略忽了最基本的家庭、健康、信仰、和培育孩子的重任。
我不知道紫荊花是怎樣成了香港的市花，可曾在香港盛開過。但願在香港種下紫荊花的上帝，祝佑這地，使她成為天國的殖民地。把這小島的人獨有的優越條件成為一個得天獨厚的機會去認識上帝。重新把短暫的視野轉移到永恆。
Back to Office
Finally got some sleep last night, thanks God. Today is working day!! My desk is piled with stacks and stacks of paper, sorting, filing, organizing and managing... the CFO said they are very disorganzied. ... may be that's why they need a manager.
Christine and the kids are gone last night back to South Carolina. Dad will fly to Hong Kong today, and that concluded the 2 months of Family Reunion, Short Term Mission and Summer visitation. The last two months has been fascinating and exhausted, but full of fun with the kids, joy serving with God in China and grace to cope with unexpected dilemma. Jesus grant us peace, wisdom to cope and strength to move on. What's lies ahead will be even more challenging and require totally reliance on Jesus. Jesus have mercy on us.
Christine and the kids are gone last night back to South Carolina. Dad will fly to Hong Kong today, and that concluded the 2 months of Family Reunion, Short Term Mission and Summer visitation. The last two months has been fascinating and exhausted, but full of fun with the kids, joy serving with God in China and grace to cope with unexpected dilemma. Jesus grant us peace, wisdom to cope and strength to move on. What's lies ahead will be even more challenging and require totally reliance on Jesus. Jesus have mercy on us.
Sunday, August 12, 2007
給姨媽的悼念 - A Final Tribute
寫於8/2/07 於廣西, 容縣
Death becomes part of life, it is expected and predictable. Yet, who can be ready to receive a death news?
姨媽 is a traditional chinese woman born in a typical family in Macau. She is the 5th sister in the family, my mom's elder sister. My impression of 姨媽 is very much dated back to those days our family still live in Hong Kong. She is a real good chef. Her home is always our gathering place for family get-together. There is a missing link for the recent years as her Alzheimer's disease become severe. She lost her ability to communicate and take care of herself. One of the purpose of my stay in HK was to evangelize to her while she is in her sick bed. Time is running out, and she didn't make it til I am complete with the mission. It is a time to learn submissive to God's time table.
姨媽 lived. Although with no spectacular legacy, her sacrificial love to her family is very much appreciated and remembered. It is nothing to be mentioned for those who love for a reward, but those who love with no condition should be respected and remembered. 姨媽's entire life s 'giving', her love to her children although not rewarded in her final years by her two sons, paid back by her always loving daughter.
Death becomes part of life, it is expected and predictable. Yet, who can be ready to receive a death news?
姨媽 is a traditional chinese woman born in a typical family in Macau. She is the 5th sister in the family, my mom's elder sister. My impression of 姨媽 is very much dated back to those days our family still live in Hong Kong. She is a real good chef. Her home is always our gathering place for family get-together. There is a missing link for the recent years as her Alzheimer's disease become severe. She lost her ability to communicate and take care of herself. One of the purpose of my stay in HK was to evangelize to her while she is in her sick bed. Time is running out, and she didn't make it til I am complete with the mission. It is a time to learn submissive to God's time table.
姨媽 lived. Although with no spectacular legacy, her sacrificial love to her family is very much appreciated and remembered. It is nothing to be mentioned for those who love for a reward, but those who love with no condition should be respected and remembered. 姨媽's entire life s 'giving', her love to her children although not rewarded in her final years by her two sons, paid back by her always loving daughter.
上帝在中國
寫於廣西, 容縣 - 07/31/07
容縣， 一個在廣西的小城。上帝在這地方的計劃如何？要在這地開荒要一個怎樣的呼召？一個怎樣的人呢?
人意而言，這不是一個好地方居住，至少對於從西方國家來的我是。
就算來到今時今日已經是現代化不少，這裡仍然是比外邊落後。回想以前從西方國家到中國的宣教士，他們對中國濃厚感情，使他們能誇越文化的差別，衝破東方人對西方人牢牢的偏見，而仍堅守對上帝的呼召不離不棄。對於現代的信徒，包括我自己在內，這份對上帝的堅貞是罕見的。在今天，我相信在這片土地之上仍然有很多為主天天務死的福音勇士在堅守著一個向上帝的承諾。這群“無名的傳道者”讓我想起邊雲波的詩：「獻給無名的傳道者」。他們用了自己的自由走上了一條沒有自由的艱辛十架路。
主耶穌，你是最忠心的傳道者，一切美善的品德都在你身上彰顯。主，我實在不算得什麼為你受苦，求主給我們一顆受苦的心，在安逸之中不至於失去勇士的心和志氣。
獻給無名的傳道者
『是自己的手甘心放下世上的享受；
是自己的腳甘心到苦難的道路上來奔走！』
「選中」這條不自由的道路並非出於無奈，相反地
卻正是大膽地使用了自己的「自由」！
所以，寧肯叫淚水一行行地向內心湧流，
遙望著各各他的山頂，就是至死──
也絕不退後！
是的，弟兄！．
（我仿佛曾親眼看見）
是那一天你來到了主的面前！
把自己，無條件地放上了死的祭壇，
帶著了滿臉的熱淚，
說不出是快活還是辛酸……。
是的，弟兄！
（我真地像是看見）
是那一天，你奉了主的差遣，
背起了主曾背過的十字架
你出發了！
馳騁在僕僕的風塵裡，
東征西戰，
直到今天！
你出發了！
用微笑
告別了書桌上你愛戀過的書物；
用微笑
告別了日記裡你愛戀過的夢想。
正如你曾經講過地：
『是用自己的手放下了朋友，愛人，享受，和名望；
是用自己的自由選擇了艱苦的戰場！』
…
名的傳道者！
無名的傳道者啊！
我關念而敬愛的弟兄！
多少神重視的工作裡滲雜著你的血淚，
多少神重用的僕人們是你作成的事工，
你們叫多少不知名的靈魂得到了生命，
你們的禱告也帶來多少的「時代的復興」。
你們，你們是無名的傳道者啊！
你們是我關念而且敬愛的弟兄！
弟兄！
我本想盡可能送給你一點禮品，
但因此卻顯出了我低能的拙笨，
我寫不出一行詩句足能述說我的心意，
也畫不出一張畫像足能描出你的靈魂，
我編不出一個劇本可以表達我的敬仰，
更作不出一首歌曲用來讚揚你的精神！
…
弟兄！我們走吧！
哪怕十宇架的道路越走越難，
我們的心志卻是越難越堅！
什麼時候忍耐到底把世路走完，
和恩主對面相見的時候，
再把一生的傷痛
盡情地訴說在主的面前……。
…
當人世間越發的黝黑，艱難，幽暗的時候，
我們便堅信，
黎明必遙遙可見！遙遙可見！
容縣， 一個在廣西的小城。上帝在這地方的計劃如何？要在這地開荒要一個怎樣的呼召？一個怎樣的人呢?
人意而言，這不是一個好地方居住，至少對於從西方國家來的我是。
就算來到今時今日已經是現代化不少，這裡仍然是比外邊落後。回想以前從西方國家到中國的宣教士，他們對中國濃厚感情，使他們能誇越文化的差別，衝破東方人對西方人牢牢的偏見，而仍堅守對上帝的呼召不離不棄。對於現代的信徒，包括我自己在內，這份對上帝的堅貞是罕見的。在今天，我相信在這片土地之上仍然有很多為主天天務死的福音勇士在堅守著一個向上帝的承諾。這群“無名的傳道者”讓我想起邊雲波的詩：「獻給無名的傳道者」。他們用了自己的自由走上了一條沒有自由的艱辛十架路。
主耶穌，你是最忠心的傳道者，一切美善的品德都在你身上彰顯。主，我實在不算得什麼為你受苦，求主給我們一顆受苦的心，在安逸之中不至於失去勇士的心和志氣。
獻給無名的傳道者
『是自己的手甘心放下世上的享受；
是自己的腳甘心到苦難的道路上來奔走！』
「選中」這條不自由的道路並非出於無奈，相反地
卻正是大膽地使用了自己的「自由」！
所以，寧肯叫淚水一行行地向內心湧流，
遙望著各各他的山頂，就是至死──
也絕不退後！
是的，弟兄！．
（我仿佛曾親眼看見）
是那一天你來到了主的面前！
把自己，無條件地放上了死的祭壇，
帶著了滿臉的熱淚，
說不出是快活還是辛酸……。
是的，弟兄！
（我真地像是看見）
是那一天，你奉了主的差遣，
背起了主曾背過的十字架
你出發了！
馳騁在僕僕的風塵裡，
東征西戰，
直到今天！
你出發了！
用微笑
告別了書桌上你愛戀過的書物；
用微笑
告別了日記裡你愛戀過的夢想。
正如你曾經講過地：
『是用自己的手放下了朋友，愛人，享受，和名望；
是用自己的自由選擇了艱苦的戰場！』
…
名的傳道者！
無名的傳道者啊！
我關念而敬愛的弟兄！
多少神重視的工作裡滲雜著你的血淚，
多少神重用的僕人們是你作成的事工，
你們叫多少不知名的靈魂得到了生命，
你們的禱告也帶來多少的「時代的復興」。
你們，你們是無名的傳道者啊！
你們是我關念而且敬愛的弟兄！
弟兄！
我本想盡可能送給你一點禮品，
但因此卻顯出了我低能的拙笨，
我寫不出一行詩句足能述說我的心意，
也畫不出一張畫像足能描出你的靈魂，
我編不出一個劇本可以表達我的敬仰，
更作不出一首歌曲用來讚揚你的精神！
…
弟兄！我們走吧！
哪怕十宇架的道路越走越難，
我們的心志卻是越難越堅！
什麼時候忍耐到底把世路走完，
和恩主對面相見的時候，
再把一生的傷痛
盡情地訴說在主的面前……。
…
當人世間越發的黝黑，艱難，幽暗的時候，
我們便堅信，
黎明必遙遙可見！遙遙可見！
Monday, August 6, 2007
我們都長大了
今天與一班幼稚園同學聚餐。其中有一位已19年沒有見過面。這麼一別便差不多20年了！他個子高了、伴了，頭也頹了，但性格仍像昔日般率真、可愛。樣子極像填詞人Wyman。一群童年的朋友仍能相聚，在今天是極難得的事。我記得初移民的時侯非常不捨這班同學，更因大家讀完了小六便各散東西，失了聯絡。當時身在美國的我在日記中寫著：「真的希望可以登報紙，尋：玫瑰崗小學1988年P.6B班同學。」後來都把這個心願忘記了。直到6、7年前有一個男同學在網上找到了我，續漸在這些年間找到更多同班同學，現在都有差不多20個了！連同歷年的班主任Miss Lo也聯絡上了！
兒時的日子總是快樂和刻骨的。雖然今天的大家都為著明天而忙碌，但在相聚的時候總能在言語間尋著一份昔日的稚氣與真。盡管今天大家都已成為了某某公司的老闆、經理、或是已育有兒女的「大人」，但他們兒時的模樣仍在我腦海牢牢記著，永遠不死。
兒時的日子總是快樂和刻骨的。雖然今天的大家都為著明天而忙碌，但在相聚的時候總能在言語間尋著一份昔日的稚氣與真。盡管今天大家都已成為了某某公司的老闆、經理、或是已育有兒女的「大人」，但他們兒時的模樣仍在我腦海牢牢記著，永遠不死。
Saturday, August 4, 2007
RXTTT - Mission Completed
Thanks God, RXTTT is concluded with lots of thanksgiving and great joy.
Thanks God that our team bond together so well even we come from different churches.
Thanks God for Dr. Silas, he is the cutest senior I've ever met, his faithful commitment to serve Jesus.
Thanks God for Elder Tim, of his great spiritual impact on me through each simple conversation with him.
Thanks God for John, for his great sense of humor and great contribution to the team with his abundant knowledge nearly everything!
Thanks God for Bryan, a quiet yet spiritually active brother.
Thanks God for Denise, we spent nights and nights of sharing together. Thanks God that we bond so well.
Thanks God for Harris, his endless idea and zealous heart in the Lord to forward God's ministry!
Thanks God that local school officials and officiers are satisfied with our course and very likely will be able to continue to work in RX, with education enrichment course as well as gospel purpose.
Thanks God that no one really got sick, at least not serious sick and we are able to cope with the environment even with 'less-ideal' sanitary facility.
Thanks God that teachers are willing to learn and able to see Jesus in us eventhough we didn't share explicitly our faith in class.
Lots and lots of thanksgiving. To God be the glory. AMEN.
Thanks God that our team bond together so well even we come from different churches.
Thanks God for Dr. Silas, he is the cutest senior I've ever met, his faithful commitment to serve Jesus.
Thanks God for Elder Tim, of his great spiritual impact on me through each simple conversation with him.
Thanks God for John, for his great sense of humor and great contribution to the team with his abundant knowledge nearly everything!
Thanks God for Bryan, a quiet yet spiritually active brother.
Thanks God for Denise, we spent nights and nights of sharing together. Thanks God that we bond so well.
Thanks God for Harris, his endless idea and zealous heart in the Lord to forward God's ministry!
Thanks God that local school officials and officiers are satisfied with our course and very likely will be able to continue to work in RX, with education enrichment course as well as gospel purpose.
Thanks God that no one really got sick, at least not serious sick and we are able to cope with the environment even with 'less-ideal' sanitary facility.
Thanks God that teachers are willing to learn and able to see Jesus in us eventhough we didn't share explicitly our faith in class.
Lots and lots of thanksgiving. To God be the glory. AMEN.
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