那年七月

那年七月...
一眾事奉上的好友/戰友都走了，心裡很孤單，很沮喪。那晚向主禱告，就是需要朋友與我同步，需要一隻又大又暖的手拖著我一同禱告。主聽了我的祈禱。


翌日早晨電話响起，是張牧師的來電，馬上清一清喉嚨那還未睡醒的聲音，恭恭敬敬卻又戰戰驚驚的與牧者談話。牧者相約下班後到他家，心裡又驚又喜，那時正多事之秋，牧者怎麼找我這個小角色呢？

牧者很坦白的與我分享，他也很悲痛、很孤單、很不被了解！雖然我的難過不能與他的同一而言，但總是為了同一件事而愁煩吧！或許牧者也知道他們走了之後我有多難過，多需要朋友和明瞭我心的人支持吧。說著說著，牧者要我為他禱告，他的手正是我昨晚向主耶穌求的。是主耶穌知道我們的痛，聽到我們的禱告。他的手份外溫暖，是主耶穌和牧者的關懷、同心與體會，讓我們成為同路者。

真正的朋友

是可以相對而不用尋找話題來打破寂靜。
是可以不談及別人而只談我們自己的事。
是可以處同一車廂而不介意我只在唱歌而不說話。
是接納我就是這麼的一個人。
當我悲傷時，是可以不問一句，只陪我呆著而不問為什麼。
是不用找第三個人來充塞只有我們兩個人的時間。
當我們很近的時候是不用第三個人在我們中間的，
但當要硬找多一個人或更多的人來，
是不是因為我們之間有很大的距離？

因此有時我會選擇獨自過不用交代的生活。

Rev. Cheung Happy Birthday

As he is with you now, Jesus please take care of him. Send your holy spirit to accompany Mrs. Cheung and strengthen her to continue your work.

Today is as well Patrick and Christine's 10th anniversary. May God continue to bless your family! I still remember clearly the day Rev. Cheung officiates your wedding on his birthday. Time flies!

來自遠方的一通電話

忘記了告訴你，我有多興奮…

那天早上上班時收到摰友從香港打來的電話。終於…她家裡安置了IDD！短短四十分鐘的車程暢所欲言，無所不談，有如她從來也沒有離開過一樣。

Serving Non-Stop...

Echo to one of the gOd'scar WeTube, "Serving Non-Stop", it is real! Philippians Service Group gear up!
Philippians Christmas Party - December 15, 2007
Philippians Camp May 24-26, 2008

Lord, please guide us to be able to find a place with cottages to accommondate families with baby.

燈謎

中秋燈謎詩
猜金庸小說『倚天屠龍記』中四位人物名字

小兒戲語挾長弓
月月年年盡東風
水火興戈絲帶色
傷心無奈不言中

Dadco: This is for you. Is it too easy?? or you might heard this before. I don't have a clue.

又胃痛

尋晚好努力，好努力煮飯，忘記了吃晚飯，結果又胃痛。

中秋節快樂

中秋節是中國節日中最喜愛的節日，沒有農曆新年般隆重，簡簡單單的與家人三五知已朋友聚餐賞月。每年中秋也會邀請一班弟兄姊妹來家一起過節，吃完晚飯便到後園乘涼，傾偈，閒話家常，食生果，月餅和飲茶。

記得有一年特別開心，連同弟兄姊妹的父母也一起過節。玩猜迷語和一些腦筋急轉彎的遊戲，Uncle就是不服估不到Black Magic的’橋’妙，猜了大半晚仍徘徊在這個黑色魔術的疑團中。

今年也該想想怎樣考一考我的客人...嘻嘻！

垃圾再生

一個月多前腓立比擧行過一個舊曲新詞比賽，當時正在短宣，沒法現場觀看弟兄姊妹表演，幸好得霍先霍太錄影製成影碟，趕緊在他們結婚前給我。謝謝他們的細心！這個節目是gOd’scar Camp WeTube 的前奏。估不到腓立比弟兄姊妹真的很有表演天份。雖然沒有參與，但也藉此也提筆一試。

垃圾…再生(原曲:垃圾)

原本我是個空殼子 任我 作孽
原本我是個孤漢子 任我 罪裡生

是我被你 用愛換來 是你十架 上那血灑
為你活過 令我可更愉快
而我像似垃圾 曾留戀這世間
從神中得再生 似無暇
人世俗裡覓愛 蜃樓般會幻化
然而得你為我 把血灑

任你我遇上 多一次 總相信 你仍還寬恕
若我再做那些不智 請主你 拔去心中的刺
不忍看 著我傷多次
在世俗 流離顛沛 從今不可以
灰燼裡 被徹底寬恕
我以後 全屬主你 全心給主你

九二七

九月二十七日是張牧師的生忌，每年這個時候也會悼念著我的屬靈父親。今天清早到Rosehill探望他，心裡很多想跟主耶穌說的話，趁這個機會也作個退修。

經過昨晚一場大雨，秋天的早晨空氣特別清新，四周特別寧靜，心靈也特別平靜。在高處遠眺，能看到更遠更清的視野，雖然看到有黑雲從遠處飄來，心裡卻無懼，因為主耶穌與我一起，衪為我遮風擋風，與我一同乘風破浪。信心就在與主親近的一刻溢滿心間。

突然有一陣嚎哭劃破寧靜的四周。有一個女人對著墳墓跪地痛哭，哭得很悲，很心寒，很歇斯底里。她身邊的一位男士也無法安撫她，這樣持續了十幾分鐘。姑勿論埋葬在地土之下的是誰，她一定很想念他，也遺憾沒有和他一起做的事情，該向他說的話。

人就是沒有可能沒有遺憾，但至少可以沒有那麼多遺憾。

老井新泉

「老井新泉」- 中國人的智慧

在書架拾起一本買了多過十年的一本書。翻開看看幾個單元，估不到有新發現。那時看了卻沒有好好看明當中智慧，又或者說當時沒有智慧去把它看明白。今日，這本「老井新泉」同樣能在我這個老井中流出新泉。

何處溫馨似我家

家之所以溫暖因為有爸爸有媽媽。

好掛住媽咪，尤其不舒服的時候。希望媽咪在澳洲有愉快的旅行！上一次同媽咪一齊去澳洲，媽咪抱住影相嗰隻樹熊"賴屎"，很勉強的拍了一幅留念，哈！哈！媽咪似笑非笑的模樣好攪笑。希望今次沒有同樣事情發生。

恩怨情仇論舊約

恩怨情仇論舊約 - 李思敬

感謝主，今天可以呆在家裡埋頭看書。

認識神，認識神所愛的人研讀與認識舊約是必須的。求主賜悟性與聖靈給孩子明白，靈程進深。

懶的後果

胃痛。

1st Day of School - Christian Spirituality & Soul Care Lecture Series

Last night, I prepared a folder, printed direction, check my writng tools. Today is my first day of school although it only last six weeks. Since 1997 graduation, how I long for a student life. Reading, researching, writing, jotting notes and thinking. I am not like scholar, I am just a learner.

Here I am, almost 2 hour early to my seven o'clock class. Sitting at the flower bushes, smelling the evening breeze, watching students with backpack walking around campus, the sun sets on front lawn of Calvary Chapel. A professor, I guess, just walked by said, "Studying hard huh?". This is feeling cool! Someone actually thinks that I am a student! I love this,... all along within the walls of church, I am, most of the time, someone else's teacher. It is cool to be a student, I don't need to have answer to question, I am here to in-take, being fed and ask questions! It is absolutely ok to say I don't know at school, especially it is the 1st day of school!

Thank you Jesus for this special day.

MY SAVIOR - JESUS!!!!

He is unparalleled and unprecedented
He is the centerpiece of civilization
He is the superlative of all excellence
He is the sum of human greatness
He is the source of divine grace
His name is the only one able to save
And His blood is the only power able to cleanse
His ear is open to the sinner’s call
His hand is quick to lift the fallen soul
He’s the eternal lover of us all
Everyone
And you can trust Him

He supplies mercy for the struggling soul
He sustains the tempted and the tried
He sympathizes with the wounded and broken
He strengthens the weak and the weary
He guards and He guides the wanderer
He heals the sick and cleanses the leper
He delivers the captive and defends the helpless
And He binds up the broken hearted
He’s for you
And you can trust Him
Jesus is the key to all knowledge
He is the wellspring of wisdom
He’s the doorway of deliverance
And He’s the pathway of peace
He’s the roadway of righteousness
He’s the highway of holiness
He’s the gateway to glory
And yes you can trust Him

Jesus IS enough
He’s the all sufficient King
He’s the King of the Jews
He’s the King of Israel
He’s the King of righteousness
And He’s the King of the ages
He’s the King of Heaven
He’s the King of glory
He’s the King of kings and
He’s the Lord of lords
And yes again you can trust Him

And rejoice in this my friend
HE is a sovereign King
There is no gauge to measure His limitless love
There is no barrier to block His blessings outpoured
He is enduringly strong
And He is entirely supreme
He is eternally steadfast
He is immortally faithful
He is imperially powerful and
He is impartially merciful
He is Jesus God’s Son
And you can trust Him

I wish I could more accurately describe Him to you
But He’s indescribable
He’s incomprehensible
He’s invincible He’s irresistible
You can’t outlive Him
And you can’t live without Him
The Pharisees couldn’t stand Him
But they found they couldn’t stop Him
Pilate couldn’t fault Him
Herod couldn’t kill Him
Death couldn’t conquer Him
And the grave couldn’t hold Him

My friends
He’s the Alpha and Omega
The first and the last
He’s the God of the future
And the God of the past
And we rise to speak Him name again and again
Jesus Jesus
He is Jesus
He is for us
And we can trust Him

Free Coffee - Everyday Grace

Stan, my CFO, gave me a starbucks invitation today, 2 free coffees for you and your friend.

Starbucks used to give out Starbucks card to their shareholder, and now extending the shareholder's benefit to their friends. I get to benefit from Stan's investment for a free cup of Starbucks. In addition to this free cup of Starbucks, I'll get a chance to sit down with Stan to talk... Thanks God... cos next year when Stan retires and resides to north California, we won't get to chat. I will ask him why he buys Starbucks coffee everyday while we brew fresh Starbucks coffee in office.

Days in and days out, we just miss out the daily provision and grace, and keep thinking that we ought to pay to enjoy them.

Thanks Stan!

人生得一知己

你，是天父放在我身邊的天使。不論是開心或失意，每一次有需要的時候都有你在身邊。

聽筒的另一邊傳來你的聲音，真的是最大的安慰。打電話去關懷別人時總知道要怎樣做，講什麼，但要去找關懷時卻孤獨得拿起電話也不知該打給誰。雖然沒有什麼真正的話題，但在那刻就只需要你的友誼與愛護。你的關愛總是及時的也恰到好處。

我與你之間就是不需要長篇大論、不需要分析、你就是知道我要說什麼。是這些年來建立的信任、了解與默契，人生得一知己，你是天父給我的恩賜。

謝謝你的電話！頂著大肚子的你要萬事小心！

看透、看不透

最近發覺身邊的人多了慨嘆，雖然自己都正在面對很多事情，但朋友們的憂慮、灰心、失望總教我把自家的煩惱暫時忘掉。我不知黑暗的隧道有多長，也不知還要經歷多少心碎、失望、忍耐、堅守、改變與參透才有曙光。

流淚因為看不透。

在這歷程中不斷去學習不去看重自己的感覺，因為感覺總教我體貼肉體。幾個月前，經歷了這功課。當時在一刻間感覺自己一定是對的，沒有再比我更真實地體會現況。對與錯，是與非，是很擾人的假象，隨感而行做錯決定，因為人的怒氣、為自己的不忿、自義都只會教人從自我出發，很自我中心。然而從克服己心，以神為首，尊主為大的掙扎中鍛鍊出來的才有永恆價值。在這相比之下感覺蕩然無存。

昨天，跟姊妹分享，對於智慧有所明白。智慧是承認世界有不完美的地方，亦不免強去把它弄完美，然而仍選擇去過得不消極、不自怨、也不去怨別人。在神給我們已有的資源中過活。有時也很難去劃分，活得清醒的總比糊塗的人多一點使命感。眾人皆醉我獨醒是不太容易吧！

耶穌在黑暗中與我們結伴，拭去我們的眼淚和迷茫。我們都需要從上而來的智慧，因我們都是當局者。

需要一些沉澱

這幾天都沒有什麼想寫的，有些心煩，有些意亂。靈性上和思想裡都需要一些沉澱。可能在工作上預知到的未來，對於必須掌握到將來的我是一份煎熬。工作‧金錢從來都不會是我的煩惱，神從來都在這方面都很看顧我。就算沒有工作一陣子我深信是可以過一年半載的。只是有機會轉變環境時有些手足無措。這些年來，朋友都有著自己的方向走。早期的一聚好朋都各有路走，這是人生吧！可能真的是時候想一想什麼地方適合我。大概一年前寫過一些想法，或許South Carolina，或許我太杞人憂天。求天父教我信心的一課。

真的戀愛了？

愛情，不是得到就是學到。

給母親的短柬

不久之前買了一本書，是李碧華的書，內容卻是內地不同的兒女寫給他們母親的說話。本書看了一半，不是不想把它看完，而是沒辦法一氣苛成的看下去，因為一看就哭出來，想起媽媽了。斷斷續續的現在只看完一半，每天只可看一點，當眼淚要掉下來的時候就想打個電話給媽媽，在媽媽的手臂上枕一下，撒一下嬌。

自小就只有我和媽媽兩個女孩子在家，爸爸和哥哥們都有他們的事。媽媽是個女超人，她一個人可以做很多事情，一切我們解決不了的難題落在她手上就變得容易解決。一些難受的事情，只要在媽媽手臂枕一枕，立刻感到被愛護。失戀時只要聞到媽媽煮的餸菜胃口自然大開。媽媽很少生病的，她好像一個鐡人，每早晨必會有早餐放在桌面，午餐也準備妥當，晚餐也必定準時供應。媽媽就算生病也會撐著為我們準備一切，風雨不改。有一次媽媽的眼睛又紅又腫，放工回家後找不到媽媽的蹤影，心裡一陣荒恐，在後園看到媽媽在灑水，連忙抱著媽媽祈禱求主耶穌醫治她的眼睛。

媽媽在我們的生命中舉足輕重，是我們受傷時的避風港，是外邊不公平對代時最溫柔的慰問。當事奉面對很難攪、傷心的事情，發脾氣時，媽媽總是很溫柔的問是否組員又不聽話呀？很累很累的時候和很想傻氣的時候都可以與媽媽一同分享，媽媽總樂意坐在床邊附聽受傷的女兒，但我都是沒有耐性跟媽媽說。媽媽也總奉陪偶爾女兒想任性傻笑和舒懷的時候，去吃一頓放肆的，買一次轟轟烈烈的，媽媽都為我著想。媽媽可否不老，不生病，永遠陪伴女兒呢。天父，請保守女兒的父母，身體健康，常常喜樂。

把這首歌送給在香港的媽媽和天下一切偉大的母親。

雲裡的月光
星星一亮一暗在閃
時間di da di da的響
我看著窗外雲裏的月亮
在老家的屋內　妳也許還沒睡
妳過的好不好妳又在想誰

世界一天一天的忙
回憶一點一點的換
謝謝這些年妳教我勇敢
妳陪在我身旁　不管有多麼困難
也只有妳能夠讓我打敗悲觀

妳像一個雲裏月亮
也是我孤單中的方向
永恆照亮我未來的路上
妳就是我冰風中的座標
受了傷的避風港
有妳愛我所以我不一樣

世界一天一天的忙
回憶一點一點的換
謝謝這些年妳讓我堅強
妳陪在我身旁　不管那有多困難
也只有妳能夠讓我打敗悲觀

我不知道話要怎麼說
當這世界聽不到我的夢
是好是壞都要向前走

不在乎明天會有什麼
不在乎一路上多曲折
我懂了　妳在保護我

星星一亮一暗在閃
地球一圈一圈的轉
我又一次看到雲裏的光

All That Really Matters

A book sit on my bookshelf for so long, half finished. I had a meal with my old friend and reminds me that I owe her the book I borrowed, now I got my own copy.

Years ago I attended a conference, the experience was ok and Shelia Walsh is one of the speaker. At the time I was so into Nicole Johnson, another speaker at the conference, her book caught me. I didn't have a chance to re-read Walsh's until recently. The idea of "All That Really Matters" is simple - Following God Doesn't Have To Be So Complicated: is to love God with all we have and are, and to love others as we love ourselves. An excerpt from the book...

"Instead of focusing on loving God and others, we tend to cling to lists of rules and regulations. We imagine that if we do what we think is required, we can expect God to respond in particular ways...."

"What comes to our mind when we think about God is the most important thing about us. If we see God as our Lord, our Savior, our provider, the lover of our souls, then that will affect how we live, how we love, and what consumes us."

From time to time, I am so bounded by what I need to do, how I should react to circumstances and need to make those around me to be happy and in harmony, and that cause me to grow into fatigue and exhaustion. As I start to read the book again, God is challenging me to change. Tough… but gradually the spirit is simmering in my heart for such change. Today I knew Jesus to a new level…

Last week, I got a little gift from my friend, it’s a photo album, I love it so much. Thanks Roz!

Hollywood Bowl

昨日跟三個弟兄姊妹一同去了Hollywood Bowl。這差不多是每一年都會參與的夏季的節目，感謝老闆每年送贈的入場劵。每年都會同不同的弟兄姊妹去，不經不覺今年已經是第八年。亦是最開心的一年，因為我們可以輕鬆的享受野餐，加上傍晚的氣溫，鬆容不迫的享受弟兄姊妹的交通與美食。節目是美國人都熟悉的Daryl Hall and John Oats。整晚氣氛都非常高漲，平時都是聽交響樂，今次是有樂隊，大家都站起來手舞足蹈非常投入，我們大概是周遭的唯一幾個中國人，表現非常含蓄但我們都隨著拍子拍手非常開心。上萬人的音樂節目一定是非常有陣容，音響，氣氛，都無械可擊，欠缺的是一個連繫。美國的文化都不是太合我們這幾個東方人。雖然一切都使我們很投入，但就是欠了一份共通點，總不能跟著他們一同唱和一同跳。就在一刻，讓我想到了一日在神面前的敬拜，一個不只萬幾人的詩班，而每一個可在神面前的人都有一個共通點，是主所拯救的人，能與衪在永恆中共存的家人。今天在教會敬拜，雖然沒有比Hollywood Bowl更好的音響，但弟兄姊妹間的交流、同心同聲的敬拜比有更響更亮的喇叭更為珍貴。有了神、弟兄姊妹、教會是很幸福的事情，我們應珍惜每一次敬拜的機會。

牠在剪毛的人手下不還口…

菲菲一早比人吵醒剪毛、沖涼、吹頭。媽咪有排先返嚟，唯有轉一轉個髮型師。

Before ...

After ... (菲菲：剪左嗱？ 好似無剪過一樣。)
芬芬：我盡左力家嘞！

菲菲，你開唔開心呀?

gOd'scar - WeTube Competition

2007年度腓立比團契gOd'scar Camp - WeTube Competition巨獻...

弟兄姊妹破格傾力演出經典之作...

最佳影片：事奉..停不了
最佳男主角：Tim - 想回到神的占 (二度決志)
最佳女主角：Maggie - 組長 (事奉..停不了)
最佳男配角：Donald - 醬爆 (佈道會之前)
最佳女配角：Wendy - 小組Core Member (事奉..停不了)
最喜愛角色：Ben - 牛肉Ben (佈道會之前)

(1) 吾艷組- 屬靈選美 - (原註：香港小姐)
http://video.xanga.com/vincentsayhi/f4d23471031/video.html

(2) Seven - 二度決志 (原註：異度空間)
http://video.xanga.com/vincentsayhi/efcbd471010/video.html

(3) Pho 64- 入Camp記之信主 (原註：西遊記)
http://video.xanga.com/vincentsayhi/4ca58471684/video.html

(4) Warmer Brother - 佈道會之前 (原註：少林足球)
http://video.xanga.com/vincentsayhi/9f9a5471695/video.html

(5) 停不了 - 事奉, 停不了 (原註：忘不了)
http://video.xanga.com/vincentsayhi/93fb4471735/video.html

(6) WeAct - (原註:功夫)
http://video.xanga.com/vincentsayhi/6f39f471866/video.html

(7) 伊甸園 - 醫癲院 (原註：死亡筆記)
http://video.xanga.com/vincentsayhi/85ef2471002/video.html

遇見神

gOd’scar Camp – as we ”遇見神”, we start to heal…

2007 is a tough year for Philippians. Our spirit is running low, bottleneck in numbers, spiritual life stuck, SIN and leaders are exhausted.

Of my little faith, I don’t have much expectation to this camp, especially after such a fruitful short term mission in China and discover the sin within our fellowship. My mentality is to get the task done. God surprises me.

The long buried feeling has been dug out after all these… The wound didn’t seem to be completely healed from 4 months ago and the same wound is being stabbed again. The whole body of Christ forgives together, all it takes is some time for the wound to heal. The Lord has mercy on us. The road leads to healing is rough and full of obstacle. We would have back up and U-turn to our original place because of the wild fire up on the mountain. The obstacle didn’t just send us back home, but was able to reroute us to the destination although that detour takes longer and with much curved road. God actually surprises us. Lightening, thundering, raining and sunshine are cycling throughout the 3 day camp. The stormy weather seems to be a bad thing for camp, however it actually keep us together.

The Transformer Bond Fire bind us together and prepared us to dig deep into our heart for some authentic and genuine sharing, disclosing the hurt during small group sharing time. The spirit of healing is among us when we are able to cry together, in front of people and especially to those that bring the hurt. Healing is gradual. The process of sterilizing is there, we feel it because the wound ache. There is much yet to be resolved, may God have mercy on us.

It is great to be part of Philippians, the unity, love, togetherness, faithfulness, submissive spirit and willingness to serve are something that make us different.

Together with a prayerful heart we step into a new era.

遇見神
看天邊飄過雲海, 告訴世界幻變常在, 從來人在月缺下盼月圓
天天總有上演,告訴你我動人故事, 動人情節留下伏線 細心飾演
如何人心粉碎像微塵 無言留淚 滿身抖震
如何遇見神 被擁抱 再得起身
明明平安彷彿天邊遠 流連遊盪 暗失方寸
然而遇見神 被指引 再生精采心內滲* (Repeat*)

只因有你 今天有你 了不起
誰無遐想一生精采佳美
由誰來導 演出好戲
人能遇見神 是福氣 最終高飛
從來難數高低多少次 何時成就 那天失意
前途幻變時 路雖遠 有這福氣心內暖

gOd'scar Camp - frustration turns into thanksgiving

Today is the Lord's Day. Thank God that we have experienced Him. Yesterday we have a tough and long day. There's a fire on the mountain, seventy some of us are driving up the mountain where the police officer make us U-turn because the road is closed. The situation is frustrating, my car is stuck in the middle of the mountain, can't go forward and don't want to go back. Information hasn't be released from the fire department whether the mountain needs to be evalucated because of the severe situation, or keep moving forward by taking another route to the campsite by faith. Iris and I stopped our car, make several phone calls to let brothers and sisters who are on the way to stop at the mountain feet, we then PRAY and calling everybody to pray for the situation. Thank God that it is safe for us to go to the camp and the host found another route that goes around the fire spot to our destination. Thank God that there is a device on earth called 'Cell Phone', cell phone has not been comes in so handy as of this time. Finally our schedule has postponded for 3 hours, at 5PM I was able to arrive the camp site after 7 hours of driving and waiting, and most of the people arrived by dinner time. The experience is frustrated yet inspiring... at night Frances gave a very good statement that what we have been experiencing is the result of our prayer. Yes, we actually pray that we can experience God. We often make an assumption that experiencing God is that everything will go smoothly and according to our plan, however God is doing new things to us. We all experience God in one way or another. Although we ended the day with an exhausted body, we actually are very joyful at the opening worship, watching movie and listening to Pastor Maurice sharing. Glory to God. May Philppians turn to a new chapter of our spiritual walk together!